Jar of Hearts

<Jar of Hearts> Christina Perri


第一次听这首歌时,彻彻底底地把已埋藏很久的伤口再次掀开。


想回去4年前结束的那段感情,真是觉得自己瞎了眼睛足足3年!直到那一个晚上,我终于决定离开这个腐败的感情,真的体会到重生的感觉。


当感情开始腐败时,自己会慢慢走进一个无底洞,难以自拔。一旦那段感情回不到以前那么美好时,我开始降低自己的底线,努力为这个扭转的事实配合,我以为我正在面对,原来我是在逃避。这一切就是为了延长这段感情的期限。我都不停伪装自己为了取悦他。无论他和多少女生搞暧昧,我都可以视而不见。有时候还会听他在电话里陈诉某某女生的好,我只可以在电话的另一头流泪。每一次分手的时候,都努力告诉自己不回头,但是无论多么坚定,还是败在你的手里。


那个晚上,他把电话的wallpaper 换成那个女生的照片;在电话里署名她为“darling”; 在我面前和她谈电话;还说她会说流畅的英文,和我比起她得体多了;他在朋友面前炫耀她,而忽略我的存在。这些种种小动作终于把我逼到我的极限了。


“对不起,你超过我的底线了。我不会再等你,不会再做你的鬼,不会再为你流泪,不会再取悦你…… 你不停地伤害我,你以为你是谁?”


这段感情是一个千斤重的负累。那一天我放开手后,我轻得快要飞上天了,那种感觉就是重生的感觉。张小娴说过一句话:“捨取,不捨,怎能取?” 放弃了这段腐败的感情,重获我得自尊。


就是因为放手,我让自己遇上我最爱的老板 :)

<Jar of Hearts> Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive 
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back





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